Cultivation

June 25, 2009

Imagine a sculpture
You work on every day.
If you stop, the beauty
Will slowly go away.

What if you were at work on a beautiful sculpture but your material reverted of decayed if you ever ceased to progress? This is the unfortunate nature of spiritual efforts.

You can never stop trying to purify yourself, improve yourself, strengthen yourself, and cultivate the sacred tha is inside you. If you do well one day, that is good. But if you cease your efforts, you will slide backwards. That is why you must strive on every level, from the physical to the mental to the spiritual. Your vigilance must never flag. Your determination must never waver.

Paradoxically, there is nothing to achieve. It is only our minds that convince ourselves that we must do something. We are already pure, already sacred. But we live in a polluted world, we have egotistical thoughts tha constantly divide us from the true Tao, and we cannot remain forever in a pure state and still function in the world. If you attained the higher levels of Tao, you would appear to an outsider as if in a trance, and it would be impossible to interact with others. So if you are trying to be spiritual in today’s world, you must never cease striving to keep yourself pure. Once you are not with Tao, you must constantly struggle with the impurity of the world.

Diversity

June 25, 2009

Gods have many faces,
But true divinity has no face.

There are so many gods in the world. Taoists have their pantheon. The Buddhists, Hindus, and other religions have theirs. The Islamic and Judeo-Christian schools may be monotheistic, but their sects differ vastly from one another. Those who follow Tao assert that each of us sees the divine in our own way. Is there one god, or many?

Among those who follow Tao, there are those who say that if there are gods, then everyone is a god. You are god. There is nothing in the sky, and no one lives your life but you. Whatever one believes in terms of deities is fine. It’s all individual preference, and it ultimately means self-awareness. But there is something beyond the diversity of gods, and that is the absolute.

That which is absolute is formless. Thus Tao is nameless and faceless. We cannot consider Tao our god. That would be to give it form and therefore bring it back into the world where the myriad things have names. We use the word Tao for convenience only, but in fact, we are referring to a deep mystery. As long as we live in the world of diversity, whether it is the frantic pace of our professional lives or the involvement with all the gods of the world, we will not be with Tao. It is only when we leave the diveristy of existence and find the formless absolute that we reach Tao.

Worship

June 23, 2009

You can worship gods,
But you cannot worship Tao.

Adoration of your god is more beautiful than lovers, more fulfilling than feasts, more valuable than mammon. It provides greater shelter than palaces. Proper worship is joyous and ecstatic.

If you have a limited view of worship, you can always lose sight of holiness. When you are on a junior level of achievement, you can always turn away from your gods at any time. Those who follow Tao know that Tao is not the god on the alter; they therefore see their god in their every action and never lose sight of the divine.

Gods can be worshiped, but the Tao can’t be worshiped. Why? Because gods lead to good things and inspire our highest devotion. As magnificent as this is to imagine, it is still limited when compared to the eternity of Tao. Tao has no definitions, no limit, no personal or individual consciousness. Thus, to worship Tao is meaningless, for our effort would be lost in an infinite sea. There is no supplication to it, for it will not respond. There is no adoration of it, for it displays no glory. There is no ecstatic union with it, for it has no differentiations. Tao is great. Tao is eternal. Anything limited and small – even worship – disappears in it. One can only enter Tao to become part of its limitlessness.

Tao

Totality

June 15, 2009

Those who consider their path superior are condescending.
A parrot who speaks of the totality of the self is absurd.
Many paths lead to the summit.
But it takes a whole body to get there.

Once I met a woman who was a life long Christian. She had two sons who practiced yoga. She thought that was wonderful, but they arrogantly considered their beliefs to be superior to hers and told her that she was not doing enough for her spiritual salvation.

No one has the right to condemn another person’s spiritual beliefs. No spiritual system is superior to another. Each one of us should have the philosophy and practices that work for us. We should be happy once we find it, we should help those who are interested in the spirituality we represent, but none of us should behave condescendingly towards others’ spirituality.

We are all trying to get to the summit of spiritual realization, and there are many valid paths leading to the top. Of course, the view and terrain on one side of a mountain will differ from the other, but the summit is identical no matter what your approach.

Whatever your path, all that matters is that you commit yourself totally to following it. Others will do the same. As long as we all climb, each from our own direction, and reach the summit of human spirituality, we can achieve complete totality in our lives. Then all the fracturing discussions of sects and different religions become unnecessary.

Being a person very interested in what “it” is all about, where did “it” all come from, and is there a divine being who made “it” all and rules over “it”, etc… I no doubt discovered the magic within this video somewhat later than most. But I suppose there is a reason lurking behind this. Namely, Richard Dawkins…

You see, while I am not religious in the slightest, nor have I any inclination to be religious or presume that there is a god that made everything, I can easily see the point of religion and why it came about i.e. how it bridged the gap in a world of man, who being given all the faculties of thought, reason and deduction, thought ‘he’ was special and above the other animals who surrounded ‘him’ and, no doubt in doing so, it must have seemed unfair to ‘him’ that, with all his inherent self worth, great abilities and success in life (building cities, growing food, developing artistic flows, etc…), he should suffer such great hardships when the chaos inherent in world deviated from the normal course of things and threw the predictability that he had become so accustomed to right out of the window of comfort’s little home… Being a creature of “why”, he must have sought explanations for these occurences. And religion would have seemed to provide all the “perfect” explanations that one needed (albeit, with some hindsight, in a very irrational way and self centered way).

Yes… Religion allowed us to explain what science could not at the time i.e. Chaos theory and the inherent unpredictability lying behind seemingly apparent stable cycles of weather systems over the short term. Why? Well, at the time science was nothing more but an infant, unable to talk or do anything by itself properly. However, as science has grown and developed it has also moved forward, shedding the teenage maligned convictions of childhood faerie land intermingled with everyday dreams, and replaced them with solid, empirical, real world facts that can be brutishly tried and tested. And with these facts, it is allowing us to build a majestic temple of Knowing, similar to that of the Tower of Babel. So… So far I agree with Dawkins…

But, having viewed religions like Buddhism and Taoism, I always felt that Richard Dawkins’ hard edged stance against religious doctrine was almost just as an extreme view as the idea “Religion” that he regularly leers at. With both Taoism and Buddhism there are hugely similar ideals that lie at the heart of science i.e. the search for truth and understanding, replacing stifling dogmatic ideas that serve more to bind and blind the general populous at large rather than free them of uncertainties… How can these branches of religious ideals be so in tune with facts of the universal laws and flows? Well… I can only begin to guess and suggest that what I have already done so in my past blogs… i.e. that we use the same structures and patterns that the universe uses to grow to think with i.e. we are part of a referential system of fractal evolution is space time. Just like the Mandelbrot set has small reoccurring pictures of the whole riddled throughout its being, so to are there structures of similar design riddled throughout the universe and our earthly and fleshy bodies:

mindblowingSo if we have these designs within us… Then surely we are parts of the whole. And if we are parts of the whole, using the same designs to “Be” and function with, then when we begin to know ourselves deeply (as meditation and other forms of mindfulness allow us to), we surely will begin to know the universe around us too. And as the similarities between what science’s shrewd empirical observations have show us about our origins and what the ancient philosophies of certain schools of Tibetan Buddhist thought/instinct have demonstrated, this idea is not as absurd as some might like to think. If you are not sure what I mean, please do research this idea for yourself. I’ll let the facts speak for themselves.

Islands of self similarity found within the whole...

Islands of self similarity found within the whole...

So Dawkins’ adamant ridicule of religious doctrines, for me as an agnostic at least, can seem like the type of genocide that Hilter and the Third Reich wanted to posit through out humanity. Except, rather than achieving his means through the brutality of violence, bodily harm and war, he is persecuting memetic ideals and thus causing a strong tug in the opposing direction of religious flow. Which is in itself an extremist dedication. But having said all that, I still really do feel that Dawkins’ work is tantamount to mankind’s waking up… A waking up from religious intolerance, selfish driven greed, ideas of superiority and the resulting violence that sometimes ensues between the grating of patriotic ideals. And here, I think Dawkins is flying high… As Winston Churchill once said, “Kites rise highest against the wind, not with it.” Obviously religion is no longer really needed to fulfill all of the roles that its human designers once expected of it. And Dawkins denial of there being a divine creator, even though it is a bit like a philosopher making a presumption about the liar paradox i.e. that it was either right or wrong, is enough to spark in this age of telecommunication a great and much needed debate on whether mankind will need religions in the same capacity that our forefathers once did.

But for the moment, let us place all that idealizing to one side… Here, contained within this twenty minute TED talk, Richard Dawkins sparkles wittily and spans the ideas behind atheism majestically with anecdotes and analogies that are more than fitting for the world’s climate of current beliefs vs. empiricism… Not to mention that it seems to carry the torch of this blog ever onwards, further and deeper into developing a knowing about the bizarre nature of the reality that we all find ourselves in. So sit back, have a giggle and enjoy this brute’s head trip:

The Lorenz attractor, named after Edward Lorenz, is a fractal structure corresponding to the long-term behavior of the Lorenz oscillator. The Lorenz oscillator is a 3-dimensional dynamical system that exhibits chaotic flow, noted for its ‘lemniscate’ shape (a term used in algebraic geometry to refer to an object that has a likeness to the figure eight’s form).

The oscillator was originally used by Lorenz as a simplified model of convection flow in the earths atmosphere. The map (see both figure 1 and 2 below) shows how the state of a dynamical system (three variables varying in time, all plotted in a 3-D phase-space) evolves in a complex, non-repeating pattern.

Figure 1.

Figure 1.

Figure 1. appeared in the Nature journal 31 August 2000, pp 949 as part of an article titled The Lorenz Attractor Exists, written by Ian Stewart. It was created as part of an OpenGL interactive viewer and rendered on a farm of Dec Alphas using ProRay.

In 1961, Lorenz had managed to create a skeleton of a weather system from a handful of differential equations. He kept a continuous simulation running on an extremely primitive analog computer that would output a day’s progress in the simulation every minute as a line of text on a roll of paper. Evidently, the whole system was very successful at producing “weather-like” output – nothing ever happened the same way twice, but there was an underlying order that delighted Lorenz and his associates.

…Line by line, the winds and temperatures in Lorenz’s printouts seemed to behave in a recognizable earthly way. They matched his cherished intuition about the weather, his sense that it repeated itself, displaying familiar patterns over time, pressure rising and falling, the airstream swinging north and south. (GLEICK, J. Chaos: Making a New Science.)

What Edward Lorenz had discovered was a chaotic system. Even though a computer had control of the simulation, and certainly possessed the capability to generate random numbers at will, there was nothing random about any portion of the way the simulation was supposed to work. It merely followed the laws of calculus as set down by Sir Isaac Newton himself and outputted a day’s worth of virtual weather at the end of each minute. Lorenz’s initial brush with chaos is described best by James Gleick’s own words, from Chaos:

One day in the winter of 1961, wanting to examine one sequence at greater length, Lorenz took a shortcut. Instead of starting the whole run over, he started midway through. To give the machine its initial conditions, he typed the numbers straight from the earlier printout. Then he walked down the hall to get away from the noise and drink a cup of coffee. When he returned an hour later, he saw something unexpected, something that planted a seed for a new science.This new run should have exactly duplicated the old. Lorenz had copied the numbers into the machine himself. The program had not changed. Yet as he stared at the new printout, Lorenz saw his weather diverging so rapidly from the pattern of the last run that, within just a few months, all resemblance had disappeared. He looked at one set of numbers, then back at the other. He might as well have chosen two random weathers out of a hat. His first thought was that another vacuum tube had gone bad.

Suddenly he realized the truth. There had been no malfunction. The problem lay in the numbers he had typed. In the computer’s memory, six decimal places were stored: .506127. On the printout to save space, just three appeared: .506. Lorenz had entered the shorter, rounded-off numbers, assuming that the difference-one part in a thousand-was inconsequential.

It was a reasonable assumption. If a weather satellite can read ocean-surface temperature to within one part in a thousand, its operators consider themselves lucky. Lorenz’s Royal McBee was implementing the classical program. It used a purely deterministic system of equations. Given a particular starting point, the weather would unfold exactly the same way each time. Given a slightly different starting point, the weather should unfold in a slightly different way. A small numerical error was like a small puff of wind – surely the small puffs faded or canceled each other out before they could change important, large-scale features of the weather. Yet in Lorenz’s particular system of equations, small errors proved catastrophic.

And there is the show-stopper: small errors prove catastrophic. Lorenz entitled a 1979 paper, “Predictability: Does the Flap of a Butterfly’s Wings in Brazil Set Off a Tornado in Texas?” and the title stuck. Today, sensitive dependence on initial conditions is referred to as “The Butterfly Effect.”

For the purposes of experimentation, Lorenz created a new system with three nonlinear differential equations:

dx / dt = a (y – x)

dy / dt = x (b – z) – y

dz / dt = xy – c z

It was a reduced model of convection, similar to the swirls of cream in a hot cup of coffee, only much, much, much simpler. And yet the complexity and never ending richness that it generates within a phase-space, demonstrating the sovereign and noble interplay behind the basins of attraction and the unpredictability behind their subtle networks of force are startling!

Ever since my first glance at one of these graphical extrapolations between the relationship of 3 variables within a dynamical system, as plotted within a 3-D phase-space, I have had a vision of multidimensional phase-spaces harboring similar ‘key’ shapes and patterns… Multidimensional phase-spaces where variables intertwine with one another, with each one affecting the other eventually (even if only in a minuscule manner) along great chains of interconnected cycles of influence that span across vast and varying scales of attention… Patterns slowly tugging on each other, some leading and defining, others lagging and holding back… But all working into waves of turbulent flow that undulate across all frequencies, and ripple and fold back over each other in ever more complex arrangements… Arrangements that can be likened to what we call quasicrystals, as seen in Animation 1 below.

Animation 1.

Animation 1.

And, as if to pay homage to this stupefying and almost unknowable complex lattice of experiential flow, I have had a deep sense of longing to port the basic essence (as Lorenz originally first described it) of this boundless and very real ideal into the sonic realm of rhythmic form, wondering whether listening to its chaotic nature might in some way provide further insight into the aural aesthetics of never repeating, endless cyclical flow. Some of my efforts towards this aim can be heard here

Figure 2.

Figure 2.

Lorenz’s system, although simple in the eyes of a physicist or mathematician, is actually an insolvable problem except by numerical means. To aid in my own understanding of the system, I developed a simple program to numerically solve Lorenz’s system of equations. Why? Well… Mainly because solving the equations by hand would require many, many BIC pens and generate reams and reams of paper that would stack up into the edges of the atmosphere… And then, having amassed all these Chaotic numerical data entries, I would then have re-assimilate it all by plotting the data into a phase space graph in super fine detail, so as to avoid the over lapping of my data stream… I think you’ve got the idea as to how lengthy and tedious a process this would be. So the program allows the user to specify a set of initial conditions and outputs data in a format suitable for importing into a spreadsheet or graphing package or porting into software synthesis patches created within the Max/MSP multimedia program.

Be it said, while playing around with this program I have reproduced the Lorenz attractor time and again, sometimes leaving the variables the same thereby watching exactly the same patterns unfold in front of my eyes, and then at other times varying the initial conditions and so witnessing strong deviations in the trail’s flow through the 3-D phase-space. But all the time it manages to maintain its butterfly shape, like two wise old owl’s eyes peering back at me knowing the subtle influence attraction eventually induces over all things, despite the utter lack of correlation between phase-space plots. I can almost understand why people must have thought, at first glance, there are only what appear to be random fluctuations coming from what we expect to be a completely deterministic set of equations. Why? Because that type of behavior was completely unheard of before. It simply has no place in our romantic ideals of solvable mathematical problems and solutions. Why would anyone believe that there would/could be equations that were literally unsolvable? Years after people first noticed this unpredictable type of behavior, it was all too often discarded by mathematicians simply as errors in calculation by machines.

But thankfully (so thankfully), Lorenz was the first to recognize this erratic behavior as something other than error. He had the sense to understand that science had been trying too hard to understand the details, pinning dismissive ‘reasons’ (that were akin to romanticized human ideals about universal perfection, much like mankind did when at one stage in history we thought that the earth resided at the center of the universe as we dismissed the obvious facts) to ‘seemingly’ trivial and/or meaningless problems/issues… Thus we simply over looked probably the most important clue that nature and math has to offer us about our universe and its dynamical unfolding in space-time… And, once again, all because the world wasn’t quite fitting into our romantic notion that the universe can only ever offer us deducible and solvable problems. Basically Lorenz realized that everyone had been trying to view the world through a microscope, seeing only a limited and highly detailed view of things, a view that had little or no relation to the greater, bigger picture. But when Lorenz put that microscope aside and looked with his own eyes, what he saw was an undeniable order, born out of the randomness… The ideal of yin and yang, the duality and contradiction of knowing the unknowable, an idea that Roger Pernrose, M. C. Escher, Kurt Gödel and Douglas R. Hofstadter have entertained at length.

“The law of nature is change (chaos), while the dream of man is order.” (Henry Adams; http://www.thepomoblog.com/papers/pomo44.htm)

Penrose's Triangle

That’s the beauty of the underlying order in chaos. A system that is completely free willed when viewed from a certain perspective also just happens to fall within a completely deterministic, predictable pattern… And later Adams perceptibly pushed his idea that one step further by simply stating, “Chaos often breeds life… While order simply breeds habit.” And it is here, in my humble opinion, that we start to find a suitable definition for life; a definition that can provide a basis for the dynamics involved in the beginnings of creation. It is my belief that we did not arise from a single god or divine creator… Rather we were born from Chaos’ gentle nurturing grasp, a hold that has slowly bubbled over into existence over millions/billions of years on this little blue green planet orbiting around this sun (and very possibly other rocks around suns). An almost infinite number of forces connected into one long chain of events, just as the Buddhist theory of Interdependent Origination suggests, brimming over with causes and effects…

Just as weather systems arose from the forces of convection that originated from the sun heating the earth’s surfaces at differing rates, thereby causing air to rise in some areas and cause pulls of air from around these updrafts that in turn cause falls in others areas, slowly building and intermingling into more complex swirls and systems over time, which overlapped one another… Combine these factors along with other variables, such as the specific heat capacity of the chemicals on the ground… And in the atmosphere, along with their weight, density and pressure (all which affect fluidity)… Well you can begin to see the complexity of these dynamical systems.

And life began in a very similar manner too. But just before life could get a firm grip on the world in which they had been deposited via the forces of accretion, elemental atoms had to first find their own balance in between themselves by spreading/sharing energetic charges/differences with one another, and in so doing finding preferred arrangements of stability that stretched way beyond coincidence. Then the resulting molecules formed might simply either sit in earthy deposits as mineral ores… OR perhaps, if lucky (?) enough to be dissolved in solution, they might be able to slowly work their way into more stable arrangements, as fatty acids do, for example:

Whatever the process, these basins of attraction slowly worked through the world of atoms and then through the world of molecules, causing harmony by ordering themselves into predefined and less energetic arrangements. And if in those gravitational pockets of matter (pockets that we call planets) a healthy and diverse balance of elements exists, along with good ambient temperatures where water may fluctuate cyclically between the solid, liquid and gaseous states of its being, then the basic structures of self repeating reactions that emulate life as we know it might be given chances to form and propagate…

http://www.wired.com/wiredscience/2008/09/biologists-on-t/

Eventually basic single celled organisms might have randomly drifted through the oceans of Earth, seeking out molecular arrangements that might allow them to continue to grow. Attractions to food… Slowly developing, as proffered by the Chaos inherent in these strange attractions, so they moved along the evolutionary chain into more complex arrangements, until one fine day (depending on your point of view, of course) humans arrived. And as we all know so well from personal experience, the attractors/desires that our bodies adhere to i.e. hunger (a need for, or an attraction to food), sexual urges (the need to find a mate in order to procreate so as to continue the lineage of ourselves/species), etc… allowed us to work with the environment and times that we found ourselves in, thereby beautifully adapting just as an algorithm of chaos natural would around the basins of attraction presented, till behaviors developed and honed the feedback system within our brains into beautifully and flexible program of adaption that could bow to the ever changing environmental conditions. But know them all? Well… The shear plethora of attractors that played out in our story of creation are far too numerous and mind-boggling to know, stretching through many scales of being, from the quantum world of forms so small to the vast galactic planes of multidimensional structure. Perhaps we may only ever know a hand-full of immediately obvious ones…

But either way, through random fluctuations around the multidimensional and multitudinous basins of attraction that exist within the Universe in which we find ourselves, around who’s attractions we are nimbly able to skirt, we weave our own unique and majestic tapestry of complexity into predictable sheets of experiential folds that ‘flap’ beautifully, if somewhat unpredictably, in the winds of chance…

I mean… Can you imagine just how stuck we’d all now be if the universe was prone to repeating itself exactly? Even if only on the smallest of levels? I doubt the diverse flow of life that we all take for granted and know so well today would have ever been able to escape from out of the centers of attractions who simply repeated exactly the same patterns over and over again. The chaotic orbits around the forces of these repetitious basins that everything is attracted to/graced with would simply and snuggly reside within their comfortable centers, hybernating in a dormant slumber, and be blissfully unaware of their true potential. Perhaps this is the ultimate fate of attraction? And one that singularities i.e. black holes in space time, know so well… An inescapable gravitation… Like an addiction… A calling or even a longing to repeat without variance.

I can’t begin to express how fortunate I feel to have this chance to be able to skate around the edges of attractions, too numerous to mention/know them all, and so to be a part of this Chaotic and unrepeatable universal dance… Everyday this Knowing comes to me, penetrating deeply my experience of Being… The fortune of winning the lottery of existence in this eternal and infinite dance is in itself divine providence. I am just a small part of this universe afforded the improbable experience of being able to know itself. And that is exactly what I intend to do… And do so with an attractor we all know so well… An attractor we call Love.

Because when you can begin to see the hugely improbable, chaotic journey that we have all (and I mean all of us, from the atomic beginnings of life through to all the organisms inbetween that eventually gave rise to us here and now) had to make in order to get here… You begin to free yourself from preconceptions of fear and the false ideals of mine and yours that this consumerist, elitist society ingrains into us… And once free, you can then begin to see and realize that if it wasn’t for Love… We simply wouldn’t be here right now.

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Blame

June 2, 2009

Though others have faults,
Concentrate on your own.

Some people have the habit of blaming others. Perhaps all of us have this weakness. The list of scapegoats for our miseries is clever and endless. Parents, community, teachers, government, and even demons and gods are all invoked when we have problems. If difficulties truly come from the outside, the problem is not blame. For those cases the problem is very clear: Neutralize that influence. If the problem comes from within, the solution must come from within as well. Before you blame friends, relatives, or teachers for bad habits and shortsightedness, you should remember that no one is to blame but yourself.

It is an equal mistake to lose self-esteem simply because you have some flaws. Looking at your shortcomings and taking steps to eliminate them should be viewed as a dispassionate project. You are not worthless because you undertake to rise above your faults. That description is only for those who never attempt to perfect themselves. We all have a perfect core, a special self inside. That purity is perfect and holy; therefore, no one is worse than another.

We are all on this planet simply to reach back into that pure self. When we reach that spirit, there are no flaws and there is no blame.

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